Isla


Isla
She digs long fingernails into thick scarred skin
Bits of flesh lodging in corners
Everything becoming so saturated in this sin
Hopes, dreams, wishes, plans,
Thoughts...horrors
The rabbit hole looks inviting
Siren songs echo loud
She knows who she is, was and could be
Flicker, shine, dazzle, radiate,
Glimmer….sound
She expels air out in a silent scream
Her vision cracking as splinters float
Everything a shadow yet exploding with light
Stumble, fumble, bumble, rip, trip…..roar

Dear Reader
            Does today have you feeling a little less than? A little forgotten? A little pushed back? Today are you going back to old habits and fears, crawling back under the covers of adolescence refusing to look at the broccoli, let alone eat it? Been there. Done that. Still there. Still doing that. We all have those moments of crap. Those moments where nothing seems to work and the only option is to let out an ear piercing scream that shatters the windows? Yes. Those moments are horrible. I like to just write those moments off to anxiety or panic, but I think also we need to chase after the quiet, you know? Chase after the quiet, chase after the moments of pause. The Bible says plenty about those days. Hebrews 13:6 is one of my favorites saying “So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?” Often I feel like that is the perfect one. It can feel like people from the outside world are attacking the calm I have worked so hard to cultivate. And then Hebrews 13:6 comes and says “what can man do to me?” and I want to shout it as a battle cry. A taunt against whatever gets in the way of my Joy of my Calm. Today, can we remember to breathe? Today, can we remember to be still? And when something comes along that knocks the wind out of our sails then maybe…. just maybe….we don’t scream. We don’t panic. Maybe hold on to the Father and let him calm our storms. Today let’s be still...

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